A few background stories and manifestations of my humanity.

I, Bricklayer

I’m currently in the middle of several ongoing life projects at once, and it’s physically/mentally/emotionally draining. Many times it feels like I’m in a discouraging slump of facing a half-tidy half-chaotic room… way messier than before I even started cleaning.

I recently read Cal Newport’s Deep Workย and came across the Medieval Quarry Worker’s Creedย (possibly an allusion to the story of the three bricklayers):

“We who cut mere stones must always be envisioning cathedrals.”


Right now it might be best to take a step back and wonder:ย Why are you laying bricks? What architectural masterpiece are you building?
  • I am studying for my Math 220.1 exam because… I want to get a high grade in this subject… so that I will get a high GPA in the end and remain up to my mentor’s standards.
  • I am spending for ADAPT and studying MFE because… I want to increase my salary… so that I can earn my first million, and eventually never have to worry about money for the rest of my life.
  • I am staring at my data for hours because… I want to understand it. I want to pick up skills to become a fully-armed data scientist in the future.
  • I am devoting so much time and attention to M-sensei because… he gives the kind of love that my heart needs. I want us to overcome our dark sides together, to water our relationship so much that it blooms and bears high quality fruit in the future, regardless of the weeds that surround it.
  • I am going to do research work because… I want to immerse myself in the research process. I want to be able to spearhead my own projects in the future, and write my own papers, and get them published. I want to have high-impact works in the future that will help revolutionize something that will help improve the lives of people.
  • I am squeezing reading time out of my busy days because… I don’t want to just collect books — I want to read them all. I want to enrich myself one book at a time. I want to broaden and deepen my perspective of life.
  • I am staying away from social gatherings because… I wish to save on mental energy and time and money. I only pay attention to those who grow me or condition my spirit.
  • I am being more strict with my time because… my time deserves to be worth 5000/hr or more. I haven’t found that things yet that will make my time worth at least that much, but I will, someday. I need to arrange my schedule so that every minute is spoken for, and the wastage is minimal. That way, I will find that very thing much faster.



I’ve always liked executing weird, uncharacteristic, crazy, creative acts with friends or other high-spirited people. I’ve been meaning to join GISHWHES (the Greatest International Scavenger Hunt the World Has Ever Seen) for years… but unfortunately this year is the last chance to participate and I have to blow it off for a number of reasons (busy with 9-6 work and masters, have to study for exams, no willing friends either). I know I can join if I tried, but it just isn’t practical (and maybe not meant to be…)

Nothing to see here… just a bucketlist item I won’t ever get to tick off… *sniff*


A valuable piece of advice from one of my indirect mentors:


It came to mind this morning, when I finally decided to face my long-standing problem at work: uncharted GGY AXIS territory. I was so intimidated at first by using processes that I’ve never used before but have to figure out on my own, but I finally made huge progress today. I realized that sometimes my main time-waster is that I’m scared to do something just because I don’t know how it works yet. Same goes for studying for a major actuarial exam. You just have to take the plunge, dammit! Should’ve done so sooner.

Spontaneous travels: Baguio City edition

Author’s note: I’ve been a planner for as far as I can remember. I love going through checklists, I bought my 2017 planner last September, I started working on my biggest Christmas gifts since July, I even got myself a BA II Plus calculator 4 years prior to entering the actuarial industry. XD

It makes sense then that interrupted or postponed plans are quite disappointing, though it can’t be helped ’cause there usually are so many variables to consider (especially the unreliable schedules of busy people). I’ve found that unplanned get-togethers have the biggest success rate, so I had this idea to start a “spontaneous travels” series for when my friends and I would find ourselves having the free time and courage to explore the gastronomical and cultural offerings of places outside the city. ๐Ÿ˜€


Photos by Tristan Cervas

How it started

One day, approximately 6 months after I set a cosplay photoshoot that got postponed due to unreliable weather (imagine how sad-looking a beach is during rainy season), my photographer friend and colleague Tristan proposed to convert it to a day-long food trip to Baguio. ๐Ÿ˜€ It was certainly feasible, since dreary weather is typical of a mountainous region and I was pretty sure that the Christmas vibe will offset the dreary mood, if any. I had no cold weather attire to use, save for my jacket from 4th grade (which still miraculously fits!).

Based on our satisfactions and regrets that day, here are our recommendations on how to survive a spontaneous trip to Baguio:

Bring cold weather clothing!

We got there in the afternoon so it wasn’t as cold as we expected, I was able to survive with only a light jacket and knitted gloves (Tristan says it’s way colder in the office, haha). It did become chilly at night though, and I bet it stays that way until the sun comes up. Good for you if you’re used to a cold environment, but if you’re like me (6 months later and I’m still not used to the office temperature, lol), it’s best to at least put on multiple layers of clothing. Fortunately there are many shops in the city that sell knitted sweaters and scarves, which make nice souvenirs as well.

Travel super early!

Unfortunately, we were only able to meet up as late as 10am ’cause he had some business in a certain bank that opens at 9am to attend to, lol. That greatly limited our exploration time cuz his family wanted him to be back in Dagupan by 9pm or to just come home the following day. This wouldn’t have been a problem if we could go there early morning for an extra 6-9 hours of seizing the day.

Plan your itinerary (even on the spot)!

Upon meeting up, we went straight to an internet cafe, rented two PCs, and took 45 minutes to simultaneously look for the items we wanted to include in our itinerary and take screenshots of maps and (haphazardly) research the walking/jeepney routes to get there. Since we weren’t expecting a fine weather, we decided to make our itinerary mainly food-based. We sorted through travel blogs and got recommendations from some colleagues.

Downloading offline maps (or having one on hand) is important to be able to get around in case of poor cellular reception. This proved to be useful when we went to the Wright Park area, where I found it hard to connect to the internet (it depends on the service provider I guess?)
Since we were both pressed for time (travel from Dagupan to Baguio took longer than expected — roughly 3 hours), we had to constantly adjust our itinerary to fit the limited time we had. There were a couple of places that we wanted to go to but had to disregard cuz we decided to prioritize proximity.
Most parks and scenery can only be appreciated during daylight, so we had to give most of them up past twilight. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Estimate the expenses!

This will depend on your itinerary. It’s useful to have an idea of the bus fares beforehand (as of writing, 109php from Dagupan to Baguio, 245php from Baguio to Tarlac City, 445php from Baguio to Manila). From what I remember, taxi fares around the city usually range from 100-150php due to medium to heavy traffic. Jeepney fares have a minimum of 8.50php. In my case, transportation fee didn’t exceed 1000php. (Random note: I prefer taking the Dagupan-La Union-Baguio route because it allows me to gaze at the blue sea for an hour or so from the western window seat * u *)

For the food trip, there is an advantage to bring more friends along for a lower price per capita. ๐Ÿ˜€ We stuck to one to two dishes per resto since we’re not really hefty eaters (had to request take out and give the food to our colleague Glenn, who met up with us at the overpopulated Night Market).
We had lunch, dinner, and dessert in 3 different places, and that cost us approximately 500php per head.

Many of Baguio’s attractions don’t require an entrance fee, but for museums and special activities you might want to look them up. Food took precedence on our itinerary, but we managed to squeeze a night horseback riding session so Tristan could try it. ๐Ÿ˜€ That cost us 400php per head for 30 minutes. (It’s useful to actually monitor time-based activities using a stopwatch so that you won’t get cheated. XD)

The Baguio Night Market (opens around 9pm along Harrison Road) offers everyday items and clothing at ridiculously low prices, where you might be able to snag good buys if you’re willing to brave that stampede-prone area. XD Glenn, having been trapped in the market crowd for a few minutes, gave a few tips: as soon as you find something that catches your eye, take it and leave so you won’t be carried away by the people pushing past you (you can’t spend too much time on a certain item or section). It’s also useful to inspect the stores first from the sides of the road, that way you will more easily be able to go in and out. Tristan and I were already an extremely introverted and tired pair by that time, and we were content with just observing all the hubhub from the landing of an overpass.

And of course, if you have people waiting for pasalubong at home or at the office, you should allocate budget for that too. In case you run out of places to buy pasalubong in the middle of the night, there are several stores near the bus stations that offer Baguio products to last minute passengers (like us XD). As of writing, a pack of fresh strawberries costs 120php, lengua biscuits and choco/milk flakes cost 80php (medium jar) or 120php (large jar), a small jar of strawberry jam costs 100? I forgot D: There are souvenir shirts and keychains as well.

Book a place outside the city! (optional)

Log into any hotel booking site and you will find that Baguio is 100% booked this Christmas season (the major hotels at least). It’s also inconvenient that provincial buses are in high demand and we were unsure about the schedules. To address this problem, we recommend booking accessible places just outside the city. For example, as insurance against the worst case scenario (having to extend our stay but with no place to stay), we reserved a resort room by the beach in La Union, just before the corner to the straight road to Baguio. We didn’t have to check in in the end cuz he suddenly had a work emergency to attend to and had to leave Baguio as soon as we’re done. But he did agree to split the “insurance risk”. ๐Ÿ™‚

Have enough cell load and battery!

I did something stupid: left home with my phone only on 68% battery. Also something smart: I brought my phone cable and a 13000mAh powerbank. It turned out to be more than enough to recharge both my phone and Tristan’s several times, but just in case, we also borrowed some from Glenn. ๐Ÿ˜€ I’ve found that using GPS services and accessing the internet is quite taxing to the battery percentage. Also, it’s best to have enough load for mobile data and communication with friends in case you get lost. (I was low on load but wasn’t worried about getting lost since Tristan is freakishly tall and I was wearing such an attention-grabbing color XD) Sometimes the same stores that offer Baguio products also sell cell load. Alternatively, your gang can agree to head to a landmark (e.g. Jollibee in the middle of the Night Market) in case one gets lost, or to hang out in a cafe until the phone batt is charged well enough.

Talk to the locals!

Ugh, the bane of an introvert’s existence! But if we didn’t manage to pull it off (thanks Tristan!), we probably wouldn’t have gotten our food orders much earlier, and we wouldn’t have received guidance on which directions and alternative jeepney routes to take (apparently “Baguio-Plaza-Liteng” also travels to the Mine’s View Park’s direction, haha). It helped that I can understand some Ilocano, the dialect of most locals we encountered.

Bring some medicine and neck pillows!

Tristan once mentioned that he has a bit of motion sickness so I brought whiteflower for him just in case. I felt sick in the evening, like I was about to catch a fever and throw up, but a little yogurt (comfort food!) fortunately helped. It’s going to be useful to bring medicine and a first aid kit anywhere one travels, especially if one plans to go hiking. The neck pillow is obviously for lengthy travels, if you don’t want your head to sway around so much on the winding roads up/down the mountain (also if you’re too embarrassed to lean your head on your travel partner’s shoulder, but too bad I didn’t bring one >///<)

Next time we’ll drag Chris (the third guy in our trio) along for sure, so our colleagues won’t have to ship us incessantly upon return >_> I look forward to our future trips! Time to earn vacation leaves ๐Ÿ˜€


World map food buddies! (or at least that was the plan)

Check out Tristan’s food reviews on his instagram profile, he’s so much better than me at making up photo captions and describing things XD

Graduation – External


I wasn’t very excited for my own graduation. Or at least I expected myself to be far more excited than this.

Though that was the case, I had a lot to be thankful for about this special weekend:

  • My whole family (except one selfish brother) came to celebrate with me.
  • I got to spend quality time with Chris (and even met his parents XD)
  • I looked acceptable by my standards (though a bit unsatisfied with the makeup)
  • Several people from the actuarial division were present and we had opportunity for a group photo
  • My photographer friend Tristan was available and willing to work on a photoshoot checklist that I made
  • I am not close with this batch of graduates (neither with my own), so got to skip the group photos and was off to a head start with the checklist before the venue got very crowded
  • Almost every item on that checklist was checked (Jenny where were you? D:) and a few surprise items happened as well (my mom and Dr. JD’s first meeting, my first pic w/ the oblation statue, etc.)
  • The logistics involving my family went smoothly. Contrary to what I expected, I didn’t get stressed!
  • It didn’t rain! Except for when my close friends and I were already safely celebrating in a restaurant
  • First picture with my video gamer/anime lover friend Lance! And David gave me a creative grad gift ๐Ÿ˜€
  • I had graduation photos with the PSG team and Dr. JD invited us to her residence for a graduation dinner
  • Update: I didn’t need to pay anything for my grad photos because they only took 7/10

All in all it was a good experience. Hopefully my next graduation ceremonies (hello grad school!) will be at least as nice ๐Ÿ˜€


Miracles (ๅฅ‡่ทก)

Getting out of an abusive “relationship”. Gathering enough courage to leave my toxic social environment behind and start anew.

Transforming from an immature and pathetic INFP into an INTJ with great potential and a higher existence.

Being able to forgive and start rebuilding a close friendship with someone who I once kicked out of my life.

Garnering the highest possible grade in my mandatory speech communication class, and enjoying it in spite of an extreme case of public speaking anxiety. Being brave enough to always volunteer to be the first speaker.

Scoring an interview with the actuarial division of my dream company, even though the dean said the odds were against me. Getting noticed by the division head, and claiming that last spot in the final list of interns.

Standing (and screaming) within 3 meters from my favorite band one fateful night.

Starting a close friendship with the guy in my team who I found really hard to like due to personality conflicts, thanks to a Shin ramyeon cooking session.

Being offered a lifelong mentorship by the professor about whom I’ve only been daydreaming being taken under his wing a year ago, even if back then I thought it would be impossible due to his time constraints and my lack of a good impression.

Opening up to my mentor and discovering that my life story is incredibly parallel to his comic book character.

Having pleasantly exciting dreams that turned out to be precognitive.

Finding people whose inner demons play well with mine.

Leading my teams to victory several times. Earning the titles “favorite advisee” and Ms. Game Theory.

Not succumbing to anxiety and falling apart during my thesis defense, contrary to what I expected.

Improving my confidence and self-esteem by tapping into the power of my dominant mindset, in spite of myself.

Having my top choice and four other backup careers, despite not having a clue exactly a year ago on what to do upon graduating.

Entering the realm of broadcast communication in spite of being a terrible and under-confident speaker.

Being PM-ed by a chess classmate who I’ve been extremely fond of since the semester we met, who I’ve always wanted to make my protegee and bond with over anime and strategy games, who I’ve occasionally spent nostalgic moments with in dreams, who I thought wasn’t going to be in my life ever again.

Being consistently recognized and remembered by the professor of the only math subject I ever failed (even though I’m not very memorable as a student and we had that class way back when I was still a sophomore), and being a close friend of his family years later.

Staying alive.

Learning how to be emotionally independent in its truest sense, thanks to the emotional trauma I went through. And being able to bounce back from that slump much quicker than expected.

Getting noticed by the man I like on the days I felt most invisible. Discovering that he happens to like me too.

Being able to collaborate with the awesome people who I used to only admire for their work.

Meeting with my intellectual best friend from elementary, with whom I haven’t spoken for years. Easily picking upย from where our friendship bookmark lies.

Getting a friend to graduate in spite of all her academic and financial hardships.

“The harder I work, the luckier I get.”

— Jay Samit

“Make interesting choices, and you will have an interesting biography.”

— James Altucher

In this lifetime, I choose to help make happen as many miracles as I can. ๐Ÿ™‚